Special day, special love. *300706*

'300706' [07:20pm]

It had been a year. Today is a special day, perhaps the most special day in my life to date.


Following what my heart tells me, i am writing to perhaps jot down my happiness given to me for the past 1 year.
Since knowing you, you have thought me what is love, promise, happiness & joy, as well as sadness.
Don't misunderstood me, for i say this is because, 'you have to experience happiness in order to know what sadness is'.
I've been through a lot with you, as well as you i am sure. We laughed, cried, and share our thoughts together.
There were tears of joy, as well as pain.
We've gone through a lot together. Just you and me.

I want to hold you once more, but perhaps that won't ever happen again.
Don't forget the warmth that brought us together.
Don't forget the warmth inside your heart, for i have not, even if it is slowly fading away into a winter fall.
I will make it burn, i will never forget the happiness you brought me, something which i can never ever experience in my entire life.

300706, it still has it's most special meaning, at least a special place in my heart.

I've never want us to be like this, i promise us we'll make it through, this endless journey, just both of us, that we'll get this knot tied. But it's all but just a dream now. Or just a plain simple wish.


Miss you, want you, need you, love you.


Happy 1 year anniversary... Babygirl...


I've never regretted loving you.



Rachel, 我爱你...
你一直都是我的 Babygirl ♡
300707

I need...

Daily readings.

July 27, 2007

'The altering of these conditions may result in separation from loved ones, and finding it hard to let go. It may be parents moving to a distant city, a child getting married, loss of an older member of the family, or a divorce. Whatever the circumstances, your domestic and emotional feelings will undergo an intense change'







Help me...

Sick and tired.

For god knows reason, my father is injured.
Apparently he injured his arm and his leg.
I really do not know what is going on seriously.
Why must all these things happen to me ah.

...

I don't know how long i can take it anymore.
Everything isn't right.


Now i think back, i've actually made a lot of preparations.
Nothing is going to be of use anymore.
It still aches, it aches so much.


Excuse me while i go see what happened.

Or maybe tomorrow.
Get well soon papa.


P.S F***ing joel be grateful you have a understanding girl going after you, you f***er =]

It just shows...

To entertain my f***ing friends, keep say i post songs only.

Today i write more.
To link with the posts below.
Read.
You will know how i feel, read the fudging lyrics.
How i feel?
'I'm still traumatized.'

A abandoned/left alone/unwanted/whatever you may call it rose.


Imagine if it is you.
I just feel a lot of knives flying towards my back.
So many that i do not know how long i can take them.
Even this shit happened to my friend Wei Lun.

...

I don't really want to talk much about it.
I've thought about it though.
It just shows how seriously i take this thing.
While some people don't, and think it's fun and nice to screw things up.
Either they are unhappy, jealous, or personal hatred.
I hope heaven forgive you people.

True like how my parents say, you only have 1 chance sometimes,
to make things right, if not, don't regret.
Don't take things for granted.
Listen to those who really care for you.
Cause in the end if you don't, they are not the ones in loss, it's you.
You might not end up losing what you care most, you are losing a family.

What goes around comes around.
I've made a lot of decisions that made me regret.
And i have thought about it much, it just shows how important i am.
How much it matters.
To a point even a simple comment from someone else can turn the whole situation around.
I'm sick.
I'm tired.
I end up losing almost everything of what is left of me.
Of what made me feel that life is really beautiful.


I will try to update more regularly.
About my life than songs yeah?
In case some suckers can't read. (Sorry! O:)
I promise.

...

'Promise'
Talking about promises.
I have not forgotten.
P.S Happy 19th F***ing birthday to my friend Joel.
Might blog a little later. Can't really think now.

It aches.

Can't sleep, it's just terrible.
I can't describe how i'm feeling now.
It's 5AM.
It's haunting me.

Don't want to think.
Qing Tian by Jay Chou

故事的小黄花
gu shi de xiao huang hua
The small yellow flower from the story

从出生那年就飘着
cong chu sheng na nian jiu piao zhe
Was wandering since he day she was born

童年的荡秋千
tong nian de dang qiu qian
Swinging on a swing in her childhood

随记忆一直晃到现在
sui ji yi yi zhi huang dao xian zai
Swinging her memories all the way until now.

ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
re sou sou xi dou xi

ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou

(*note: there is no translation for these two lines, they're merely a musical scale such as do re mi fa so la...)

吹着前奏望着天空
chui zhe qian zou wang zhe tian kong
Playing an opening theme, looking into the sky

我想起花瓣试着掉落
wo xiang qi hua ban shi zhe diao luo
I think of petals trying to fall

为你翘课的那一天
wei ni tiao ke de na yi tian
That day I skipped school for you;

花落的那一天
hua luo de na yi tian
That day the flower fell;

教室的那一间
jiao shi de na yi jian
The space of the classroom;

我怎么看不见
wo zen me kan bu jian
Why can’t I see it?

消失的下雨天
xiao shi de xia yu tian
That rainy day that disappeared -

我好想再淋一遍
wo hao xiang zai lin yi bian
How I want to be rained upon again

没想到失去的勇气我还留着
mei xiang dao shi qu de yong qi wo hai liu zhe
Never thought that I still kept my lost courage

好想再问一遍
hao xiang zai wen yi bian
How I want to ask again:

你会等待还是离开
ni hui deng dai hai shi li kai
Will you wait or will you go away?

刮风这天 我试过握着你手
gua feng zhe tian wo shi guo wo zhe ni shou
That day that the wind blew I tried to hold your hand

但偏偏 雨渐渐
dan pian pian yu jian jian
But unfortunetly, the rain kept on

大到我看你不见
da dao wo kan ni bu jian
Falling until I couldn’t see you

还要多久 我才能在你身边
hai yao duo jiu wo cai neng zai ni shen bian
How much longer until I can be beside you again?

等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
deng dai fang qing de na tian ye xu wo hui bi jiao hao yi dian
Waiting for the day to turn clear, maybe I’ll be a little better then

从前从前 有个人爱你很久
cong qian cong qian you ge ren ai ni hen jiu
Long ago, a person loved you for so long

但偏偏 风渐渐
dan pian pian feng jian jian
But unfortunetly, the wind kept on

把距离吹得好远
ba ju li chui de hao yuan
Blowing, widening the gap so much further

好不容易 又能再多爱一天
hao bu rong yi you neng zai duo ai yi tian
So difficult, (I have) another day to love again

但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜
dan gu shi de zui hou ni hao xiang shuo le bai bai
But it seems that, at the end of the tale you still said, “Goodbye”

'How long?''How long?''How long?''How long?''How long?''How long?''How long?''How long?'
I'm tired.

H-O-L-D

Refer to lyrics. (Japanese song)
Lyrics that aches me.
Sunmin thanx Kubota - Keep Holding You


Romanized, Kanji, English.

Yume (wa) naze ka hakanaku te
Asa no kaze ga sotto ubau
Koi (wa) fui ni kurushime te
Kotoba yuki jou subete tojikomeru

Togire nai ( togire nai )
Kono negai ( kono negai )

Koe ni nara nai itoshi sa (wa)
Koraeru hodo ni afure dashi te ku

Mamori tai ( mamori tai )
Mayowa nai ( mayoe nai )
Kasane ta kodou hate made

Meguri ae ta inochi (wa)
Toki mo koe te hibiki au
Tatoe namida otoshi te mo
Dakishime rare te zutto Keep holding you

Kimi ga kure ta jounetsu o
Kisetsu ni kae te kaeshi te iko u
Kimi ni somaru merodii o
Kaze ni nose te zutto todokeyo u

Mamori tai ( mamori tai )
Mayowa nai ( mayoe nai )
Mune no tsubasa hiroge te

Kono uchuu o iro doru
Kake ra no mama kanji au
Tatoe tooku hanare te mo
Dakishime te iru zutto

Meguri ae ta inochi ha
Toki mo koe te hibiki au
Tatoe namida otoshi te mo
Dakishime rare te zutto Keep holding you

Let me love you
I will hold you
Let me squeeze you
And we ' re gonna sing this song

Let me love you
I will hold you
Let me squeeze you
Baby on&on&on



夢は なぜか はかなくて
朝の風が そっと奪う
恋は ふいに 苦しめて
ことば ゆき場 すべて 閉じこめる

途切れない(途切れない)
この願い(この願い)

声に ならない 愛しさは
こらえるほどに あふれ出してく

守りたい(守りたい)
迷わない(迷えない)
重ねた鼓動果てまで

めぐり 逢えた 命は
時も越えて 響きあう
たとえ 涙 落としても
抱きしめられて ずっと Keep holding you

君がくれた情熱を
季節に変えて返していこう
君に染まるメロディーを
風に乗せてずっと届けよう

守りたい(守りたい)
迷わない(迷えない)
胸の翼広げて

この宇宙を 色どる
かけらのまま 感じ合う
たとえ遠く 離れても
抱きしめている ずっと

めぐり 逢えた 命は
時も越えて 響きあう
たとえ 涙 落としても
抱きしめられて ずっと Keep holding you

Let me love you
I will hold you
Let me squeeze you
And we're gonna sing this song

Let me love you
I will hold you
Let me squeeze you
Baby on＆on＆on



Just being a dream, so useless
I open my eyes and the wind softly blows
love suddenly makes your heart tighten
my words, your way, I’ll keep it in me

until when (until when)
a yearning heart (a yearning heart)

a wanting that can’t be explained
trying to hold it in but little by little it starts to fall out

I’ll watch over you (I’ll watch over you)
I won’t hesitate (I won’t hesitate)
until we stop breathing

what I’ve been looking for a long time
matching love’s melodies
even if the tears keep falling
forever being with you, Keep holding you

I hold the passion you gave me in my two hands
as the seasons go by I want to return to you
the familiar melody
I’ll put it in the wind and send it to you

I’ll watch over you (watch over you)
won’t hesitate (won’t hesitate)
with my heart’s wings, I want to fly

the vast sky
becoming something small to feel you
no matter how far I am
I’ll be with you forever

Let me love you
I will hold you
Let me squeeze you
And we’re gonna sing this song

Let me love you
I will hold you
Let me squeeze you
Baby on & on & on…

3:17 AM wonder.

It's late, but who cares, niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee song. =]

'Someone like me' by Atomic Kittens

Don't let your head rule you heart
Don't let your world be torn apart
Don't keep it all to yourself
Just let all your emotions run free with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me

I know Its hard when you're feeling down
To lift your feet up off the ground
We make mistakes but doesn't everybody
You don't always have to agree with someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me

We know the story so far (what you want and who you are)
What you want and who you are (Free)
Let all your emotions run free
You don't always have to agree
With someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
Someone like me

P.S I keep freaking wanta vomita. F***